such a useless friend all i have are rantings

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don't even know what im doing with my life

everyone is sad they can't get to their exchange places while im confused i din even get one

everyone wants to change their roles as ogl's or wadeva when i din even get selected

everyone is talking about their own businesses when i don't even have a clue

everyone is going for all the damn outings when im held out with shit at hall

studies catching up with me again despite starting 1 month early

sorry im too lousy to be in any of your leagues...

i really really really really feel like buying a pack of ciggs and just kill myself slowly

im fucking jaded with my life i really dread waking up sometimes...

dear God please help me if you will... im just drained and i have no clue whats my purpose in life...

Remnants awaiting disposal

On hindsight,

I made you lose so much you don't deserve to lose.

The old pictures of you and them are testament to that.

I feel sorry, maybe I should not have gone for you?

Then you will still keep your friends, and I will get over my sadness

Then everything might be better than how it is now.

Then you will not keep wanting and needing to start a fresh.

As far as everything else is going right now, I still believe you had your reasons for how you treated me.

And I am at fault, probably you have high expectations for your loved one because you need so to love more.

I fall short of the expectations, severely.

But well, saying I've been really trying to meet them may not seem good enough for you I suppose.

Whatever the case, I feel remorseful for how things are now with you and them.

And I just hope that one day

Everyone can put everything to the past

And be friends again.


That being said,

I know things will never be the same again...

I am lying to myself if I say that I can forget the past

Because I can't

Yes, things will never be the same again. With you, with me, with everyone else.

But that is life I guess? A facet of it that we have to embrace.

I'm glad you have your close group of friends

Who are always willing to support you

I wouldn't mind you bitching to them about me, about my bad things, if it would make you feel better in the end

If it would make you feel the world is a fair place

If it would make you feel loved by someone.


Speaking of which, I know I am not the one to you

The one to you is probably the one you are willing to sacrifice for

And able to meet all your expectations

I believe you will find the one

And you will be happier ever after

Because you deserve better than me


You will never read this, but well, I would say I was naive?

To really really believe that one day we will get married, that things will work out

That I can be the lucky guy to bring you to Disney lands

That I can be the lucky guy to bring our family to USS

Well, its a learning journey for me too

And the gripes of reality just hit me that ideals do not exist


O well, the rantings,

If all else fails, theres only these things I pray for you

To stay healthy, to stay happy, to be saved one day.

Take care.

I've removed the post to what I believe is causing trouble... sorry for inconvenience caused!

Dam its been... two years since I last posted in this blog... immersed in nostalgia... haha the past is sure interesting...

I MOVED!
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I am sorry Zhi Wei and Wei Chien for not being able to go watch Harry Potter and make you all can't watch it.

I am sorry Ms Low for being insensitive to your feelings during graduation.

Most importantly, I want to say sorry to Kelvin, whom I have never met but already pissed off.

And you know why?! Because I am a fucking lazy person and can't wake up at the right fucking time.

It started the night before graduation. Wanted to make a proper speech overnight, ended up whoring about. Din sleep. Then graduation I actually forgot to thank Ms Low.

Never mind, I reach home, I wanted to meet this guy Kelvin at 8 to buy a double pedal. In the end, the fucking alarm clock din wake me up and i woke up at 10. Kelvin, whom I met through classified adds, called and sounded quite angry alright.

Also, Zhi Wei and Wei Chien's trip to watch Harry Potter has been screwed by me too.

So in the bottom line.

I FUCKING SUCK.

Guo Mei Mei

I was enscounced on the comfortable toilet bowl yesterday night when I heard Guo Mei Mei's new single on the TV near the living room.

And it was a hell of an experience.

My fresh fibre was about to breathe new air when the "MAI YA HEEE, MAI YA HOOO, MAI YA HOOO, MAI YA HA HA" pierced through my glass toilet wall.

Immediately, peristalsis seemed to be inversed and my shit went all the way back in. My hair stood on end.

"... BU PA BU PA HEI, BU PA BU PA HEI, BU PA BU PA BU PA HEI..."

OMG... for everyone's sake can she or the company think of better lyrics or sing properly?! For instance, the part should go "MAI YA HEE, MAI YA HOO, MAI YA HAAA, MAI YA HAA HAA." On the real song, dragostea din tei.

Ok the Mice love big rice was not that bad, but this... Omg... Seriously it ruined my impression of the great track man!

30 seconds passeed, well, the advertisement ended finally. And the next moment, HIANGG...BRAK BRAK BRAK..... drip...

haha watever..

Reply to tags

The creator of the tag can't post on his own tag, like so damn cool right...

e fun:
SHIT!! I can't find it!! Nvm ask you about it another time! Thanks for informing!
Amerz:
Yea... duno lah, heck the speech for now, gonna do it wif daniel on that day haha!
x.l. naggy:
Mm... sort of ba, but you see if 10+ classes make formal speeches won't it bore the heck out of you? Anyway our class will be the third last making e speech haha don't think they will care that much anyway!
Samuel:
LEARN STREETCAR, HELENA, AEROPLANE!!!
Daniel:
Lei hai da shui chiong?
Yanling:
you are cool... its are, not is, because when you use you you are referring to the singular tense, therefore everything after it must be in singular... i am like, so prepared for english tomorrow haha
Kenneth:
My name is su xing, you left out the ing.
Kenneth:
Tee hee hee -_-

And I pissed Ms Stella John Off

Ok once again due to my efficiency I am wreaking havoc in school...

And due to my inability to be responsible and collect money asap, there, I am now the last class that has not gave the school 350 bucks. And according to Ms Low, well, Ms John is pissed off...

Oh great, pissed myself off as well... You collect money in the midst of O's... Oh ya but you will argue like "YOU CBK FU NV COLLECT BEFORE O'S!" and I will just go lilke "...".

Ok enough of bullcrap... Just hope this shit will be over by Wednesday....

But actually its alright to get really pissed off with your school after leaving, because the more pissed you are with it, the less you will miss it.

So come on man! PISS ME OFF WHILE YOU CAN! hahahaha...

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Streetcar by Funeral for a friend IS DAM NICE. Its so nice that, if clinkz heard it while windwalking he will be stunned and stop its windwalk and drop its skadi it is holding onto...K lah not funny, but its really nice...

Anyway Dota has a new hero, and he looks quite jian as usual, those kind of heroes who can escape death etc... my style haha!

Luck for the remaining 9 days.